Chapter 40-3 Monsters

[Tar Heel Fan]

Perhaps, but perhaps not. She had no problem driving Saul and Victor away and 'banishing' them from HER colony because SHE couldn't trust them even though Victor and Saul helped save all those colony members. (Again making decisions that are detrimental to everyone else in order to serve her own best interests). So she has no problem kicking people out as long as she believes it serves her best.

And just like like I mentioned with the jokes about 'I don't have a pilot' and 'The queen will permit you to stay'. With every idle comment there is a hint of truth. She mentions the option because she has thought about it and considered it. She may not be likely to follow through with it, but based on experience and knowledge of CJ's character, if she comes to the conclusion that this is the best option for her then she will do it.

Digging the psycho-analysis of CJ. My two cents: the coldness/ruthlessness with which she treats others as pawns is a defense mechanism - her way of coping with a world with no certainties. Every time she has left someone in beneath the defense, she's had to cope with loss. She clearly loved and lost Sean, which seemed to push her away from human contact. Then Saul came along, she left down her guard, and he broke her heart. She didn't banish him because she couldn't trust him. She couldn't stand looking at him because of how painful it was to open her heart again (Victor was just collateral damage to help her save face and not make it purely about Saul). It's easier to see people as "its" if you're actively trying to avoid getting hurt again.